its confirm that ill be moving to penang..i guess its time for me to be independent.or maybe i see it as way to escape whatever crappy things happening to me lately..maybe i cud start over..get a fresh start huh..but i havent tender my resignation letter yet.i dont know y ive been delaying it..okey..ive got the best team in my company..hahaha..maybe i exaggerate it a bit but hell yea..the best security team okey..thats y it kinda sad for me to do it.i wont be learning things wif paul or siva..and having fun conversation wif adam and peter..ohh..i learn a lot from them.i still remember when darren told me that he quite impressed wif how things are moving wif my process and told me that most of my colleague think that im polite and fast learner.hahahaha..sungguh hebat mereka memuji saya..nih yg nak kembang idong dan segalanyer nih..the environment here quite laid back..u are allowed to work from home and all.the flexibility is there.but sadly there's a money issue.seriously mmg rindu ngan tempat nih..had fun teasing ganesh this morning wif niresh..ohh seronoknyer dgr niresh pon nak keje in penang..yeay..ader member nak lepak..heheehehe..mages pon nak ikut but then ill see la..if theres any vacancy there..im sure gonna alert her..heheehehe..lunch wif shell tadi..dia pon dah give up dah..and she wanna try to apply job in penang..hahahahaha..ramai plak org nak settle down in penang..bes nih...hahaahha..so before goin back just now..i had few photo session for the farewell cd..hahahaha..omg it was soo fun and hilarious at the same time..ganesh takut giler when siva and niresh ask deep to dukung him..hahaahahah..super fun..even goddy and akash is having fun as well..oh..im gonna miss this ppl..bunch of crazy ppl that i used to work wif..hahahaha

ive got a call from that company..but tak sempat nak pick up..but pandai plak diorg yer..tak dpt on the phone..dia send email plak..they required few document to process my offer letter.agak kelembapan la gak..but its all good..rasa cam lonely plak biler dave tak kacau ari nih..slalu ader je benda dia buat to disturb me..hahahaahha..im suppose to attend the big nite out concert in singapore..hahhaaha..but tak jadi..papa pon tak bagi saya pegi yer..oleh itu..terpaksa laa let go tix tuh..im sure su is having fun right now..si navi plak tak sabar2 nak belikan aku flight tix to swiss..ishh..dia keje dekat lugano..border wif itali tuh..bley gi florence jap..gi gucci nyer outlet..haahahahahah..bagus..belum pape lagi dah berangan..

malasnye lar nak gi opis..kalo bukan sbb ader meeting ngan Peter ari nih..for sure la aku dah work from home..hahahaha..so funny when he asked bout Akash..it seems like everyone is concern bout how he treating me..so far okay je..as long as dia tak cari pasal..hahaahahaha..but it feel nice la since ader jugak org riso kalo keje aku byk sgt..hahahahaha..if im leaving for other company pon..belum tentu dapat team lead yg se-best Peter..ahahahahaha..that what makes me serba salah if im bout to move to other company..lotsa pros and byk juga cons keje kat sini..plus point wud b..boss yg best..team mate yg sgtlar knowledgeable..and kawan2 opis yg sgt cool..sgt flexible la..since sometimes can work from home bagai..as long as u do ur job..the mgmt will be happy punyer..dave is leaving for 3 weeks training in s'pore..suppose to meet him today..but punyer la malas and he's quite busy gak..need to finish up all the pending work..kesian plak tgk dia..but he called me..agak lama la gak ckp ngan dia..how can he believe in god but not religion..and its soo funny listening to him debating bout that coz as for me..y do u care bout what others think as long as u..urself believe in it..giler emotional i tell u..hahaahhaaha..i was laughing all the way..dia plak jadik annoyed aku pi gelakkan dia..and tersgtlar pelik when sulaiman berckp sgt proper ngan aku..slalu cam ntah..it just dat dia cam lain plak mlm nih..hahaahhaha..or maybe dia terasa kot ngan status aku kat fesbuk..hahahahaa..but for a change..i like the way he talk to me now..hahahahaahahah..oh terasa cam in luv plak..but tak tau ngan sape..

nuthing much to do today other than lying on bed reading all magazine that i just bought..theres one particular mags that quite interesting to read..Cosmopolitan Aussie version..which emphasize on body issues..i guess as long as u r comfortable wif ur body..u can wear anything and feel seks! while wearing it..giler la..this month issue and model is not ur typical cosmo content..most of the girls are size 10 to size 16..which is typical size for girls..some ppl like to b skinny and some ppl like to b curvy..but for ppl like me with this kind of body frame..i think i will never be size 0..its quite impossible coz i do have big body frame..ohh..nih abah punyer gene lar nih..hhahahaahhaaha..okay..since dave still tired since he arrived in kl from penang around 5pm..we will have to reschedule our "date"..hahahaha..sebaiklar reschedule..i dun feel like goin out today...rasa sgt malas..hahahaha..had a chat wif navi just now..yeay..he promised to bring me to watch football match in emirates stadium and stamford bridge stadium....hahahaha..since im the one who influence and introduce him to EPL..i tot he will support arsenal just like i did but he ended up supporting chelsea or ballack to b specific..hahahahaha..tah pape tah..benci aku..chelsea plaks..i told man bout brian and he suggesting that brian still like me..just coz he wanna know whether i have a bf or not..i cant understand men..really i dont!

btw seks! != seks tetapi == seksi

arrived in kajang around 9am this morning..the train late as usual..hahaahah..acik suggested that i shud file a complaint against ktmb..took a nap and suddenly feel so bored..talk to jim and shell on ym..decided to hang out at shell's place..then both of us feel so hungry and our initial plan wud be to lunch at jusco equine but we ended up at mines..hahahaha..lotsa stuff u can buy here u know..but i miss one particular shop which effa's fav shop.i think they already closed it down since i cudnt find anywhere..then ajelan called and ask shell to teman him to go to lowyat..so i tagged along as well since ive been thinking to buy external hard disk for quite sometimes...shell mentioned bout one of her friend working in library in mmu..hahahaha..which remind me of abg "system of a down"..he's one of the hottest librarian la masa tuh..hahahahaha..masa zaman mmu dulu..he's one of our motivation to go to the library..giler gatal masa tuh..hahahahah..i dont know y but i always have a thing for a guy wif goatee..ohh suddenly rasa sgt rindu dgn life masa di mmu..after went to lowyat ..i decided to sleep at shell's house..temankan dia since i tot she'll b alone..dah lama tak tido dgn dia..hahahaha..tgk ler cite die hard 4.0 sambil layan ym and fesbuk..skali siva ajak lepak plak kat mcD..dia suruh ajak man as well..but then he's in some other place..heboh tgh makan steak katanyer..cessss..hahaha..but its funny how siva predicted that leman wont make it and he tot that leman will give excuses like "tak baik keluar mlm2"..hahahaha..obviously siva didnt know him that well..anyway..dave sms me just now..saying that he will be back to kl 2morrow..so maybe ill see him 2morrow evening..he said he wanna see me before he goin to singapore for training..and again he told me he like me..he like me  when we were still working together in hsbc..hmm..weird isnt it..i cudnt feel the vibe tho..or maybe i was very much in luv wif navi before thats y i cudnt notice bout him..but i hate the fact that he quite determine to win my heart..coz i duwan to hurt his feeling since i dun even know whether i b able to feel whatever he feel for me..to tell u the truth..i quite enjoy my singlehood..i get to have choices and i get to go out wif any guy without having to worry bout it..he once told me that he cud convert his religion and for me i think its pretty stupid..religion is not something for u to take it lightly..it play very important roles in ppl's life..eventho im not that religious..but i wud never think to change my religion..its the one thing that u shud hold on to...and once again..guys..plis dont say something u dont mean!!!

i listened to this song called bencinta while i was driving to go for interview this morning which remind me bout farin..hahaha..she gave me this song few days before..it is a good song..its funny how u can love and hate a person all at the same time..strange rite..the fact that u can hate a person that u love is actually very annoying..okey..enuff bout that..im on my way back to kajang right now..and as usual we are taking night train..i cant sleep since its soo freaking hot!!..i shud get the upper berth like last time..very comfy not like tonite..okay..btw speaking of the main purpose of coming to penang..the interview went smoothly..and i think i am ready to move to penang..start my new life i guess..get a new beginning huh..i dont know what im looking for but im still trying to figure it out..im sure Allah will help me along the way and guide me to the right path..insyaAllah! but the interview took less than 10 min..dang..i dont know y do they have to do that..basically they already ask pretty much everything bout what i do and what "interest" me..but it was funny since the interviewer just cant stop smilling..hahaahah..but i love smiley ppl..its all goood..hahahaaha..okayyyyyyyy..theres one song just keep on playing on my head today..shooot..i hate that..its an oldies or rock kapak ler org kata..its  seribu bayangan by damasutra..giler ol skool i tell u..ahahahaha..and again i have the urge to cry..so i think i might just watch my sister's keeper.the one film that never fail to make me cry..i hope eventually it will make it stop..hmmmmm..btw , dave called this evening and it turn out that he's calling to let me know that he's coming to penang..crazy..he wanted me to accompany him on sunday..but too bad..i already on my way to the train station..he shud let me know earlier..hahahaha.

okey..i just arrived in penang this morning..i took night train from kl sentral to bukit mertajam..thank god we managed to secure our bunk for the nite..i always love to travel to penang by train if i didnt drive my car..i feel that travel by train is much safer than riding a bus..call me paranoid but thats just how i feel..plus lotsa mat saleh yg single and hot naik train..hahaahhaah..damn tired okay..arrived in bukit mertajam around 5am and we took taxi to ferry terminal which cost us around rm20...i always have a thing for ferryboats..just like mcDreamy in greys  anatomy..hahahahaha..but it was damn tiring i tell u...coz we need to wait and waiting is painful alrite..not only that..we also need to walk around 500m before we reach the bus station to meet iza and pakcik.had breakfast in one of the restaurant in penang..well..thats wat u got when u go to penang..u got to eat lotsa delicious food!!!i dont know y i feel soo depressed rite now..for no apparent reason..lot of things been on my mind.its like im having turbulence of emotion..i feel the urge to cry for no reason..hmm..maybe it got something to do wif my hormon eh..oh god..i need to prepare for the interview 2morrow..and its almost 1am..hahahaha..till then..bye love!

okay..i woke up this morning wif heavy hearted..and i miss someone..i dream of him last nite..in my dream..i hug him and never let him go..i even cried in my sleep coz its been a while i didnt hear any news from him..i guess i must be missing him soo much.so..i sms him this morning..saying that i dream of him and told him that i miss him..i dont know whether he will reply my sms or not..coz before this..its hard for him to reply my sms or taking my call coz of our history...i hurt him pretty bad i guess..i shudnt be that emotional wif him..but surprisingly , after few minutes..he replied and the first thing that he asked me wud be "do u have a bf"..hahahaahahhahaha..what kind of question is that..ohh i really miss him..hopefully things will be better between us..he really make my day!